Rythmn of Autumn

2012-01-18T21:20:00.000+08:00

When we lose something, we'll gain something else
When we gain something, we'll lose something else.

When the question is to figure out which is the more valuable one,
Its hard..
when whatever you lose is just as valuable as whatever that you'll gain.

The saying goes,
you can't have your cake and eat it.
I can't have both

I know too clearly what I'll lose and gain,
whichever option I go with.
But that does not make it one bit easier.

You wish that you don't have to make a choice
But the path will fork
and you'll have to walk down one if not the other.
The choice is entirely up to you.

Ironically,
there's no choice but to choose.

The path has not forked yet.
But it will soon.
and I'm not ready to make that choice.

dessert

2012-01-05T19:18:00.000+08:00

Have been busy these few day although class haven started...
timetable's finally out...

with most of the classes that have crappy timing.
how i missed classes that have that just awesome timing...

but today, our main topic is ice cream.
I <3 ice cream!

it transports me back to fond childhood memories
when a simple ice cream is all it takes to make my week.
when my focus was to play
when i had no timetable
when i could not care about homework
when i believed in fairytales

ice cream still makes my day now.
bringing me back to the past for a few short moments
to reminiscence how it was
to appreciate what has happened.

to remember memories so fond...

ice cream, I love you!

path

2012-01-04T18:25:00.000+08:00

In the middle of a bridge,

With both side promising just as much.

Different though they might be,

They attract all the same.

One choice is as good as the other.

Which side should I take?

I want them both

But I know a choice I must make

To give up one

To gain another

I cannot have both

Each one is as good as the other

which path shall I take?

Becareful of what you wish for

2011-12-06T13:16:00.000+08:00

because it might just come true
but you might not like what you have wished...

so there's the dreadful feeling that heart sinks to the bottom
(of where i dunno, but so the expression goes)
and it is what you wished for.

except that it isn't what you expected..
meaning that what you think and what happens in real life can have different consequences
its like the case of sailing a boat.

Naively thinking that the wind will blow the sails in the right direction
what happens insteads is...
the boat's there,
the wind blows,
but not in the direction you want.
it's sorta what you wished for.
but then again its not.

so, becareful.
you might just regret it when it comes true.

Pictures and Memories

2011-12-04T22:27:00.000+08:00

Been looking through pictures lately..

to see how the past has been
what choices we had made
and what we choose to do with it

to be happy or otherwise.

at the same time,
we find so much to be thankful about by looking at those pictures.
we see people that'll always be there for us no matter what happens.
we see those that have been great company
we see those that we don't remember any much more
we see those that have changed our lives for better and for worse.

most importantly,

all those have made us who we are today.

2011-11-22T20:20:00.000+08:00

you condemn me when i do it
but it's fine when you do it?

talk about double standards.

2011-11-14T23:03:00.000+08:00

It's funny how we wait for things to happen...
eg people only clean the fridge when its sunny (?)

doing your homework only when the song has finish playing for the 5th time

these are just some.

there's many more...

but we like to associate certain ''reasons" to doing things.

it's as if we were waiting for all the stars to align in their places before we can do anything at all...

however, the pattern is

we only do this when we don't really want to do that particular task...
hence, our ritual to get the stars or whatever in the proper position or condition

to delay,

to justify what we do not do.

what we choose not to do.

now, it's studying for quiz time

which is also why i'm avoiding the task of looking at slide after slide...

by justifying that i have so much more important things to do
other that study for tomorrow's quiz...

so we'll have to wait till the moon is high, the stars are bright, the temperature is cool, the environment is quiet before anything can even start...

but...reality beckons...

start studying!!!

nitez peeps

just a thought

2011-11-10T15:20:00.000+08:00

Been reading blogs lately.

It amazes me how brutally honest you can be when writing.

Not that other people are lying,
Rather, other people share stuff that are not that close to heart

Reading the blogs that write your thought straight from your head
where filtering is minimal,
and you finding that although you might have so much in common yet at the same time be so different.
you find that there are other people who think that way.

Suddenly you feel like the world is not filled with people that are....
fill in the blanks
i know what i want to write
but i most certainly won't write it here

So, moving on.

Classes have been as usual
Felt that pre u was much more taxing than this.
should have more to do
should have more mental stimulation in class
yet still expectations fall short

should join more clubs, societies or whatever
too much free time with too little to do.

time will pass as it is a perishable commodity
no matter how we spend it
gotta spend it more meaningfully

No, I'm not thinking of changing the world or such
but my world needs more colors.
time to start looking at the colors that are available
and start adding colors to life.

Colors, pretty or not,
is better than a boring blank canvas.

looking at the colors now =)

Rain

2011-11-02T11:03:00.000+08:00

It was raining so bad yesterday,
I almost had to swim to my car...

Thankfully, it was one of those days that I actually showed up slightly earlier to get a decent parking place...
Thankfully, I also didn't wait till it stop raining to get to the car...

Seen the pictures on fb where the water was already above the tires...
Poor them...

Nonetheless, staying dry was never an option.
Was drenched when i got into the car..
then the windscreen was so frosted up,
visibility was merely a meter or more...

so, got home cold and wet.

2011-10-23T13:31:00.000+08:00

Was watching X Factor yesterday...
with the awesome Simon as one of the judges..

Anyways, people like to say that we watch this kinda shows because we secretly wanna watch the people that can't sing...
but if that were true,
people would stop watching after the auditions when every tom, dick and harry give their best shot at it...

yet,
the ratings remain high after that.

because,
people are interested in the dreams of these people who make it through.
they want to see the distance they are willing to go to win.

Especially in this time when the economic is not a bed of roses..
most of them are desperate
so they have to get it or else...

but it is also at this times
that people dare to dream
to think of the better future when the present is bleak
it is hope that keeps them going.

it is also at this time that they have nothing to lose.
so, they have the courage to try and realize their dreams
because failing won't mean anything worse
but winning will changes their entire lives.

in times of desperation do dreams bloom
in times of desperation do people dare to dream
in these times, do people take that step to realize their dreams.

Sometimes, it takes these times to remind us that it's ok to dream

let me know how spring is like on Jupiter and Mars

2011-10-12T12:32:00.000+08:00

Still in uni despite the fact that there's no class after this..
suppose to be researching assignment...did a bit d..but got sleepy. z.z

so now,here i am writing.

today is psg day.
so we went to wisma n played with colorful stickers that we stuck on each other's back after we finish writing them...
of course, we have to write something nice, so we wrote but only got to read what was other people's backs..

in other words, i dunno what they wrote n stuck to the back of my shirt...
and that's why we're walking around with bits of colorful paper stuck to our back..
other people would probably think that we're crazy psycho students that go around with post-it's on their backs writing god knows what...haha...
cause we're all obviously wearing our psych t-shirt...
therefore, image tarnished??
adding more reason for people to believe that psychology students are a bit not right in the head
(which they also believe is why we studied this in the first place..vicious cycle??)

oh ya..when i get back n read those little pieces of paper,
i'll recognize your handwriting...
so...
u know la =p

but whatever u wrote, i had fun playing with u guys today =)

After a Sunday Afternoon

2011-10-09T23:09:00.001+08:00

I've left this blog alone for a little too long..
But today, I feel like writing something,
so here i am. =)

Today's been a rather lazy Sunday.
Waking up late, making pancakes for lunch,
Just lazing around and enjoying the afternoon.

Doing nothing is an acquired skill.
whether we realize it or not,
we're always up to something.
You know it's true when your head can't stop thinking. Something must go on in there and there seems like no way to stop it.

So, today was one of those rare days when it was relatively blank.
To just enjoy the day for what it is and soak in the sun, enjoy the breeze...

Also, at the same time being really productive by finishing 60% of 112's journal in one go...
making this one of my not-so-last-minute assignments that I've done in quite a long time.
For I confess,
procrastination is one of my greatest flaw...there seems to be more fun racing with the clock to complete something and make sure that it is of a certain quality before the deadline. Or I suppose that it's just an excuse for not doing what I'm supposed to do XD

Hmm...Should write more often. I= Cause it's fun =)

Some updates.

Assignments are closing on one by one. Midterms are like next week but I'm not feeling it yet...should start studying soon...but I'll probably end up doing it one day before and try to cram everything in one day..hopefully I can or hope that I'll start earlier? sometimes habits are just so hard to get out from...

Also,
it's a really nice feeling when you and old friends meet but your conversations go on as if not a day has past since your last encounter.
it's heartwarming to see that we still care as much
it's really good seeing you again =)

that's all for now. updates soon.

2011-09-27T13:21:00.004+08:00

To the peeps around me,

Thanks for making me smile when I forget to. =)

down

2011-09-09T14:42:00.000+08:00

everything is fine.
but nothings feels right.

what is wrong then?

2011-08-07T23:00:00.000+08:00

thinking bout stuff that i shouldn't conern myself about...

worrying about the things in the future,

that may or may not happen...

still not able to stop the thought process...
sometimes,
wish that there were a stop button to stop thinking bout these kinda stuff.

i know i wished for it...
but it was never supposed to happen in real life in all the wrong ways...

left with a mind that still wonders back to that.
even now.

only comfort, it'll either stop tmrw or get even worse.

2011-06-23T11:07:00.002+08:00

还没好好地感受雪花绽放的气候

我们一起颤抖会更明白什么是温柔

还没跟你牵着手走过荒芜的沙丘

可能从此以后学会珍惜天长和地久

有时候有时候

我会相信一切有尽头

相聚离开都有时候

没有什么会永垂不朽

可是我有时候

宁愿选择留恋不放手

等到风景都看透

也许你会陪我看细水长流

还没为你把红豆熬成缠绵的伤口

然后一起分享会更明白相思的哀愁

还没好好地感受醒著亲吻的温柔

可能在我左右你才追求孤独的自由

有时候有时候

我会相信一切有尽头

相聚离开都有时候

没有什么会永垂不朽

可是我有时候

宁愿选择留恋不放手

等到风景都看透

也许你会陪我看细水长流

有时候有时候

我会相信一切有尽头

相聚离开都有时候

没有什么会永垂不朽

可是我有时候

宁愿选择留恋不放手

等到风景都看透

也许你会陪我看细水长流

2011-05-30T23:17:00.000+08:00

I'm not lost anymore..
Well, at least for now.

Its a short sem this time meaning that the time to warm ip to do our assignments have been halved.
Nonetheless, life goes on and assignments must be done on time.

Anyways,
Like always,
procastination is the greatest assignment and exam killer of all time..

so far, the ppl in charge have not gotten any leads to catch hold of this menacing killer,
leaving it to roam free and continue to wreck havoc in the lives of those that fall victim.

The public is advised to look out for suspicious characters that roam about.
And to try to avoid them as far as possible.

^^v

Now n Forever

2011-04-06T13:04:00.000+08:00

I've found my 'Why'

Its time to get started for real and do what I'm supposed to do.

Anyways,
a little update on life nowadays....
there'll be a BBQ later in uni...
decided to just go n have some fun...

Assignments are at a all time high (but not as high as Ausmat)
finishing them one by one.
think that they will be all on time. ^^

Conclusion: I think I'm heading where I'm supposed to go. Things will turn out Ok after all. =)

Broken

2011-02-26T13:16:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling really lost at the moment,
I wanna find my way.
The path I'm supposed to take.

But we all know with certainty that there are no absolutes here.

There's just maybe, probably, and no idea.

Absolution is a summer dream

that would continue to haunt us

We know naught about the things
How it will start

Or how will it end

Not till the moment when it matters.

Will it be too late then?

Do people pay more attention to broken dolls?

Dolls that are broken have this certain quality
in them that compels you to look deeper into
Those sad glass eyes that reflects your own.
They tell a story,

One of sadness, gore and regret.
They tell a story,
One that we would not easily forget.

And they'll keep telling stories,
Until we listen no more...

New Start

2011-01-11T18:14:00.000+08:00

Just started class...
AND
waking up really early in the morning
AND
sitting in the jam on the way to class...

Anyways,
new beginnings for all...
meeting new people
learning new things

We do this every year..
Yet, when yesteryear passes us by like a flash
We never ever get used to that...

Saying goodbye to things that you no longer can indulge and keep anymore this year...
Putting certain thing lower down the list as other more pressing matters have push them down...

With the new year comes change,
new choices and new dilemmas.
We'd survive one way or another
and then when the year ends,
we marvel that we got through all that...
only to start all over the next year..

The continuous cycle that would go on,
Until the day we cease to care whether or not things happen..
Otherwise it would be see you again nest year!

2010-11-30T23:16:00.001+08:00

Updates...
Have been attending moral and malaysian studies class last week and this week...
So far its been boring
except for our field trip to Tunku Abdul Rahman's memorial...

That is supposedly the only fun we're gonna get from the whole thing
cause only that day did we not have to sit in a stuffy classroom
trying our best to keep our eyes open
or at least look like we're awake during class...

Surprisingly, the trip had quite a few interesting facts...
Especially those behind the scenes stuff
that we were enlightened by the tour guides there...

TAR's residence had rather good design and deco..
Despite the fact that the place is 120 years old...
Or maybe because they made such nice places to take pictures in..

Anyways..hope to pass these 2 boring but compulsory subjects...
I certainly do not want to go through all the classes again...

Thankfully, it ends this Friday!
Can'twait for it but at the same time dreading it since there'll be exams..
Who cares if it's MCQ...
will try to study and understand some cause someone told me that
you can pass without reading...

PS. if I fail, I'll hold you responsible for it...you know who you are...=p

2010-11-27T12:45:00.000+08:00

The ground might be safe,
But those who do not take the leap of faith
Shall never have the chance to know the joy of flying.

2010-10-28T18:02:00.000+08:00

Who knew that something that I thought would be all business and no fun could be such a rewarding experience?

Knew you guys were awesome,
just didn't know how much...

making me laugh when i stressed out,
going crazy doing crappy stuff
and getting high on high calorie junk food..

very glad that I did know you guys.

so, before our major exam,
just wanted to say good luck to all of you...
love you guys!

2010-10-14T10:44:00.000+08:00

its study break week...
and i'm super guilty for not even picking up any books of any kind to study...

knowing that WACE is just looming around the corner does not make it any better...
feeling a little down cause all of a sudden things don't seem like i envisioned it to be...

Generally, people would say that's just life, live with it...
they're right...

BUT...(there's always a but in everything)
I feel that whatever I've went out to achieve,
I have not done enough to meet my own standards...

In some sense, I supposed you could call that regret..

Anyways, the blog will probably remain vacant until I finish WACE
or..if i choose to steal a few moments to shower some attention on this much neglected blog(yes, i'm very aware of that)

so now, i'll have to put 100 annd 1% into getting the results i so very much need..
its the only way to get what i very much want..

Its assignment season again!!

2010-08-09T12:12:00.000+08:00

Yes it is the season when all assignments come flooding together
And most probably drown us all...
Haha...

Anyways, time before Wace is getting shorter and shorter...
But dun think I'm up to scoring really high marks yet...
Cause still am in the average category....

Anyways was thinking bout the many things in life that were gray...
Little was ever in black and white but there are tons of shades of gray...

How dark or light is that shade of grey is totally up to how we see things
But it won't be black or white,
Its always somewhere in between...
Unless you have a really really extreme view on a certain subject...

Otherwise it's a gray gray life for the rest of us.
There's no right or wrong...
But something in the middle...

2010-07-26T08:51:00.000+08:00

This is fast becoming a monthly blog...
since the only time i update now is almost the end of the month...

Time really flies,
no matter how cliche you think that is...

Its just the plain truth...

Met up with friends a few days ago...
Not much has really changed
but not much has stayed the same too...

We're all in college,
driving,
talking bout who wrecked their cars,

stuff that wasn't really applicable to us not even a year ago...

but we do talk bout the usual crap as well...haha...

There is change in things but at least it is good change...
We'll never stay in the past forever,
The only place we can stay in is the present...

Now...
for college,
WACE is just 3 months away...
but everyone is still not really geared up yet..
at least those around me..
haha...

Anyways,
gotta study harder!

that's all for now...

until next time(more likely next month ^^)

The Month Of June....

2010-06-20T23:17:00.000+08:00

It has been a rather crazy month...

after finishing all those assignments....

We then move on to the EE...

finally got that over last thurs...

then went to penang,

just came back yesterday...

anyways the holidays has officially started!!!

But after the trip,

i seriously think that famous food is just overrated...

I just don't get it...

First you have to wait about half an hour at least for a seat

Then you wait another half an hour at least for a waiter,

then you wait at least one hour for your food...

ANd then, it doesn't taste much more than mediore....

Think about it...
all that just to eat something that's not as good as it's said to be,
you even have to fork out more than the usual price...
it truly is ridiculus.

The next time you say we're going to eat something that is famously good and out of this world...
check your facts before hand...

Cause it's probably a whole lot of hot air....

Coll

2010-05-25T13:24:00.000+08:00

I haven't posted anything for quite a while...

been busy lately....

My to-do-list:

-Finish Psychology poster by thursday
-Finish EALD assignment by next Tuesday
-Psychology Topic Test on Thurs
-Maths Topic Test on Fri
-CAE presentation on Fri....

that about all...have not mention the extra class today and the extra class next week on this same day but for a different subject....

After all that, its gonna be EE week...

Which is sorta like our first sem exam...anyway...
will try to study as much as possible before i go in there...

AFTER ALL THAT, its gonna be sleep till noon...

Semester Break

2010-04-28T20:35:00.000+08:00

Yes...
It really is the semester break...
but its only 1 week long...

Don't get me wrong...
I don't hate college,
I just dislike waking up at 5.30 every morning to get ready and take the bus...
So, its a refreshing change that I dun hav to do that
well,
at least for this week...
No crappy bus that sometimes come late...
No taking a one whole hour journey from home to sunway...
None of those is enough to make my day...^^

The best news is....

I've finally watched Kaichou Wa Maid Sama...
The anime of course...
yay...

its been out since the start of April but I didn't have the time...

So....now...finally!!!
=)

That's all I'll write for today.

Gotta finish the stuff that's piling up as I'm typing this...

Busy la...

2010-04-22T23:22:00.000+08:00

Just finish our EALD forum presentation on Tues...

At least it wasn't as disasterous as I thought it would be....
Since all groups finish presenting...
Wed's class was cancelled....

Which on that day I so happen to have a CAE replacement class...
that meant 6 hours of break!!
they say too muuch of a good thing is bad and that's true..

Now...
no time to rest...

Have to finish maths homework on time for the extra class tommorow...
and do CAE assignment that would be due in 2 week...

Plus next week is holiday week...
then one week after holiday is the start of topic tests for all subjects...

Dunno how to get it all done in time...
Just hope that all my hair will stay black after all this..

So much for now...

So Far.....So Good?

2010-04-17T20:53:00.000+08:00

Looks like its the end of another week....

Which also means that it's getting closer to my deadlines...
Which we really progress...
Which I hope we can finish it in time....

Anyways...
Enough about all the doom and gloom...

Lets start with the undecided...

To those who don't know,
that would be my CAE assignment where we have to choose between

a) interviewing someone above 45 about their working life....

OR

b)analyze jobs that have been gone for 300 years

tough choice?
i think its kinda dumb....

both choices have its pros and cons...
have to give teacher next week then spend my whole semester break finishing it up...

Then we move on to the fun stuff....

Had real fun today driving...
Especially when i can go more than 70km/h...
finally get to speed a little....

but don't get the shocked look,
I did it within reasonable speed limits wan la..
No matter how fast I wanted to go...
haha...

So much for now...
Must return my attention to my assignments or they'll never get done....

Will update after forum presentation.

Sunway Outing

2010-04-12T18:38:00.001+08:00

It was a drizzly day with little sun...

But we didn't mind since we won't get sun burned haha...

anyways....

We headed there to celebrate the belated Bday of a very dear P.M.(not prime minister, mind you...)

And...

Cupcakes were on the menu...

And...

Shoppping....

And....

HTTYD!

if you don't know what that means....

well...I'll tell you...

How To Train Your Dragon.

although some people faced with the prospect of watching a animation was not so wiling at first,

they seemed pretty satisfied with my choice after all....

this would be the part where i tell them...

I Told U So!

But that would be really sarcastic and dumb,so you guys are off the hook....

Anyways,

My EALD assignment is almost done(my part),

have not started on maths yet...

But I promise that it'll be done by tonight(cause the class is tomorrow morning....)

So long for now.

P.s.

Watch HTTYD! if you dunno what that means...please refer to the above.

P.P.s

This is a really lame posting....read at your own risk(but i suppose that this warning came a little too late...haha...)

2010-04-06T13:31:00.000+08:00

It seems like I have been busy for quite some while now....
Anyways...

I now have some time to blog before really starting to do my project...

Which so happens to be the issues of....

Women's Rights VS Men's Right

I'm not exactly complaining except for some details that are not really worth much mention here....

Never knew that so much could revolve around these few simple words...
From....

Who pays for the date right down to custody and alimony....
Some of these rights that we take for granted
were actually faught for and of course won....
otherwise we won't have them.....

To think that
things were very different until not so very long ago,
made me use some of my grey matter to contemplate this matter.

For what is have today was not necessary what they had yesterday.
And for some even today they lack it.
So its a time to feel grateful of the things that I have and maybe...
complain a little less...

^^

PS. Ryan, please make some noise when you walk the next time!

DEcisionS

2010-03-27T16:52:00.001+08:00

When we aren't given the chance to decide,
we complain and say
hey that's my future!
I should be the one making decisions!

But when we get the luxury of deciding things ourselves...
we then go on and say something like:
what do you think of this?
am i making the right choice?
what will happen if I decide to do this or that?

So many questions....
and yet
So little answers....

It's baffling but the decision we make today
shape our future tomorrow...

No matter what we decide
the future is in our own hands.

We can no longer blame another for making a rotten decision
For we are now the ones making it...

So the only one there is to blame is ourselves....

The freedom of making decision comes rather heavily...
For every outcome good and bad is your own doing and no one else!

It sometimes can be too heavy that our shoulders slump while trying to stand up straight....
But the decision is now yours
and only yours.

Make the right ones when you can
and forgive yourself when you don't.
So you can go on and make a right one the next time.

College

2010-03-25T10:15:00.000+08:00

this is currently my second week of college
which also happens to be club and society week...

so there were booths around the place promoting different clubs...

and....

we entered.....

the Korean Club!

never thought I would but turned out to be rather fun...

However college life is more demanding than i thought...
because waking up at 6 to catch the bus at 7 is not what i'm really used to...

then reching college after 8...and to think that its not that far away....

going home isn't easy too...
finishing after 4 then reaching home close to 7...

but then all in all...

i suppose its still ok
other than the change of class timetable this morning that we weren't informed of....

that's all for now....
updates will be irregular.
due to uncertain timetable.

A New Start

2010-03-17T15:04:00.000+08:00

Will start college tomorrow...

A new beginning of a new chapter in my life.

Hope that everthing will be ok.

Will update soon.Promise.^^

Those who change the world

2010-03-13T17:56:00.000+08:00

Those who bring change are those who dared to be different

They stand tall with their beliefs

Not caring what obstacles that they might face

They face it with pride and persistence

they fill their cause with passion, determination to overcome
even when the majority was not on their side.

SPM results out soon

2010-03-07T09:42:00.003+08:00

Well I suppose that this isn't very new news...
Nevertheless this is it.

Whether its good grades or otherwise...
The time is here for us all to see,
how much all our time and effort was worth.

We have all waited/dreaded this moment where the ambiguous state of things were to become crystal clear...
It is no longer just not knowing or rather ignoring it like some..
Its gonna be like Judgment Day when everyone just gonna be jittery...
I guess that will include me as well.

Anyway,
what will be will be..
there's nothing to change what's gonna happen this thurs..

At lesat i get to see everyone once more in the same place...
cause this is probably the last time some of us will ever see each other if not forever then a long time...

So,
we can say that this is kinda of a closure/ending for our high school life...
and to finish that particular chapter of life is filling me with mixed feelings...
although i'm glad that it's just over,
but i can't help missing more than a few things of that chapter..

Anyways,
good luck everyone,
hope that you get what you hope that you'll get for SPM!
see you on Thursday.

Driving Lesson 3

2010-03-02T21:41:00.002+08:00

Went for my 3rd lesson today...
that includes doing the QTI (pre-test)
so the whole thing sort of went like this....

8am...
wait for driving instucter to pick me up for the lesson...
status: half asleep..

8.15am..
got onto the car...
status: quarter asleep..

before 9300am....
in the car, dosing on an off..
cold.

9.50am
start to drive.
using lousy car this time with lame brakes that aren't cut out to do the job
took turns driving with the other girls.

11.00am
break

12.00pm
actual on the road driving at the max speed of only 50km/h...
which might seem slow but it does change a lot when i'm at the wheel...

12.30pm.
round one complete.waiting for round 2 in a not so ventilated waiting room with not enough chairs....

1.00pm
round 2 begins...
nothing different except the car...it was back to the lousy one that we used in the first place....sadly....

1.20pm...
round2 ends...waiting for others to complete their rounds...

1.45pm
finally we're leaving for home..
since this so happen to be the time the schools are over...
traffic jam...half the way...
dozing on and off agin..hungry..no lunch yet.

2.50pm....
finally home.

Driving Lessons Part 2

2010-02-25T19:44:00.002+08:00

Went for my 2nd driving lesson yesterday...
And it was at the least more enjoyable than the 1st since I've now learned everything but on the road driving...

But now there seem so little time....
to finish my lessons and take the test in time before i started college(if i choose so.)

When I started out in Jan,
there seemed to be so much free time in my hands...
but now..
I need to make time to fit everything in...
Time flies....
Break will be over soon...
and the studying will begin again once more.

Not sure how I'll fare on the academic side this time...
But I hope that I'll put in enough effort to make it actually count and matter.

Till next time.

The Heart Does As It Pleases

2010-02-17T02:24:00.003+08:00

Our mind when it has nothing to do,
likes to roam,
to many different thoughts, places and memories...

Sometimes,its a pleasant one,
Sometimes its not....

Either way,
we go on but not without the effect of our straying minds...
Whatever that was there,
Changes and affects what we'll do next..

Whether or not we're aware,
the fact stares at us coldly in the face...
For it is a fact
that does not require your humble confirmation to exist.

It is a fact by virtue that its true
And
cannot be altered simply to fit your every whim and fancy.

The thoughts that the mind holds
And
The thoughts that our heart holds...
Does not differ much.

For our hearts is the catalyst in changing the way the mind thinks,dreams and operate.
The heart holds memories the way we want it to
Filtering what we refuse to see...
Blinding us from what is reality..

But none is reality
Other than what the heart decrees to be reality.

2010-02-13T12:11:00.003+08:00

Some tigers are just too cute to resist!
These are just a few...
Don't have much to write 4 now...
so this will be all la...

Overly stimulated Pain Nerves...

2010-02-11T01:06:00.003+08:00

This past few days i have been helping round the house doing housework...
As a result if this few days...
I have managed to stimulate a lot of my pain nerves in my hands..

The reason behind that is because...
Yesterday,
I accidentally cut my right thumb when i was cleaning the windows...
In fact, its a rather deep cut...(unlucky me T.T)

The very next day(today...)
I cut my right index finger when i was cutting the vegetables...
Maybe the vege wanted me to feel how it was like getting cut...

After a few hours,
i scraped my wrist on a door...
which then lead too some bleeding again...

From this 3 situations...
I guess we can conclude that typing with one less index finger due the fact that its warped up by a plaster is not exactly pleasant..
Not to say that now my nail is damaged too...not a sight for sore eyes at all...

Anyways...
lets hope I keep the rest of my fingers unharmed...
Otherwise I really won't know how to type anymore...
Just joking...

Will try to keep out of trouble like someone asked..
and try to keep away from similar painful disasters....

That's all for now..

2010-02-05T21:25:00.003+08:00

一首很有意义的歌。。。

是 tank 唱的哦。。。。

如果我变成回忆

累了照惯例努力清醒着
也照惯例想你了
好怕一放心睡了
心跳在梦中不听话的就停止了

听着呼吸像浪潮拍动着
越美丽越让我忐忑
我还能珍惜什么
如果我连自己的脉搏都难掌握

如果我变成回忆退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣
我冰冷身体拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你人海孤独旅行
我会恨自己如此狠心

如果我变成回忆终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发蹒跚牵着你看晚霞落尽
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以让他陪你我不怪你

快乐什么时候会结束呢
哪一刻是最后一刻
想把你紧紧抱着
可知你是我生命中的最舍不得

如果我变成回忆退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣
我冰冷身体拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你人海孤独旅行
我会恨自己如此狠心

如果我变成回忆终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发蹒跚牵着你看晚霞落尽
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以让他陪你

如果我变成回忆最怕我太不争气
顽固的赖在空气霸占你心里每一寸缝隙
连累依然爱我的你痛苦承受失去
这样不公平请你尽力把我忘记

Addicted to manga...totally....

2010-02-04T00:45:00.002+08:00

This is Usui, main character of the manga....

Been reading manga this few days...
can't stop really...really addictive...
since its probably gonna be the only chance i'll get before i start studying again..
might as well enjoy it now...

go usui!

2010-02-03T23:10:00.002+08:00

Well well well...
who ever thought that my first driving lesson could be disastrous?
It was supposed to be perfect and easy(what i expected...)

Well...
it apparently was...very much horrible...
and i personally didn't quite know what went wrong...
It might sound stupid...
but seriously...
the instructor expected me to find my own mistakes and fix them...

But if i could do that,
he wouldn't have a job at all...
Maybe its his mid age crisis...
anyway,
the best thing would be he x reading this....

Otherwise,
I dunno if I'll become his least favorite student..
but since i think i already am...
then there's no harm then...

But damn the gas pedal...
I think if I fail the practical driving test,
it'll probably be because i'm stepping on the pedal too hard..
and causing it to accelerate too fast(and maybe crash into something...not that it happened yet...)

But by the looks of things,
getting my license to drive would really be a rather long way away...

So,
i hereby appeal to any higher power that we humans look up to,
to make sure that my examiner would shut one of his eye and just let me pass...

Otherwise,
I'll be stuck with Mr. Mid-Age-Crisis again...
which i am seriously,
NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO...
so pray have some mercy and spare me all the torture...

that would be all of the complaints from me now...
anyways,
looking forward to CNY!
will update soon when i get the chance..
buh-bye!

Random Thoughts

2010-01-29T23:33:00.004+08:00

I've finally found the time to blog....
anyway,
was doing some thinking today...
so it'll just be bout some random thoughts...
don't get lost whilst reading..^^v

Random thought #1
kaichou wa maid-sama is a really funny manga...

Random thought #2
i should go find some comedy to watch soon...

Random thought#3
are some things really that impossible? '.'

Random thought#4
where was i??

Random thought#5
never mind...will remember at a later time....=.=

Well...that's all...cause i lost track...hehe..till next time...

Changes

2010-01-23T17:37:00.003+08:00

As we grow,
we tend to view things so much more differently than before...
even were it just a month ago,
things have become different...
and so has there been a change in the way i view it as well..

No matter...
I hope that'll I see things in a better light..
and would always see the silver linings of the dark rain cloud
instead of just notice the pouring rain...
maybe I'll notice the rainbow that only comes out after the rain...

Till next time...

Choices. Choices, More Choices

2010-01-18T15:25:00.003+08:00

The choices that are now presented before me
will bring me down very different paths
no matter which one i choose.

Thinking about which to take is no simple task
Not at all...
especially with the future at stake

The choices that are made now shall determine which way the future will be paved...
A decision not to be be lightly taken at all...
Or maybe I'm the one that's putting too much thought in this matter...

But
one thing is for sure,
the choices lie in my own hands,
what i choose shall determine the path to take...

I hope that I'll make the right choice .

Missing Form 5..

2010-01-14T10:05:00.004+08:00

Things used to be more fun in secondary school...
it might be the fact that most of time there are not much classes or rather not much classes we bother to pay attention to...
so we have lots of time for yakking and playing...

I also kinda miss the many flight of stairs that we have to climb up/go down whenever we need to go somewhere...
Not forgetting our canteen food(this may sound weird...)
but we can't really find the same flavors outside...
maybe its because we're eating it in a different place
or simply the people we're eating together with isn't the same ones from school...

I also miss the crap we would all talk about when the is time(which is almost most of the time..)
Despite most of the things we talked about we rather crappy...
we all seem to enjoy ourselves very much...
in spite that sometimes...
we forgo our homework and studying(just a little la...)

I miss the times we would lepak in BK
but not get caught by teachers...
rather we get caught by other people more...
still,
we would always love to go there...
especially when we get to skip boring classes...
pretty much our means of escape...
hehehe...

The whiteboard that we scribble on every morning when there's a marker pen in sight...
but we do rub it off later..(responsible right...^^v)
ironically...
we don't write much on the board when the teachers need us to...hehehe...

We like it even more when there's some special event that's in preparation..
since that usually means that the teachers are occupied with other more pressing matters rather than teaching us...
leaving us free to talk, draw on the board(and rub it off later), or plain just lepak-ing...

Those truly where the days that were really fun..
Finding those moments again won't be easy..

But finding in another phase of our lives will take more than a little time...
Cause of the new enviroment, new people, new schedule and so on...
I hope that I'll find it in a not so distant future...

Stimultaneously...

2010-01-14T09:49:00.002+08:00

Have been working for almost for a week...
anyway...
before that..
passed my undang with 46/50 last sat...
this sat will be preparing for the dreaded 6 hour course...
i'll probably be bored to death..
but that's the price you'll have to pay to learn to drive...
totally crappy,
yet we're all powerless to change it...

just like other things...
thinking of quitting...
cause i don't have any time for anything else but that...
maybe it'll be today...
but who knows...
we'll just have to wait and see...
all this grey matter usage is really not that fun at all...
in fact i think it kinda complicates the matter..
rather a lot more...
haiz...sien...

so much for now..
will update if i find the time to do so.

A Whole New Chapter

2010-01-05T14:50:00.002+08:00

If things go as they are now..
I'll probably end up in college by this march or may...
dunno yet la,
still have to see how things turn out.

Anyway,
found a job in Subang Parade in a shoe shop ad...
will be starting work this Sunday...
hope that it will be enjoyable..
hehe...

But,
before that,
will be taking my undang test this Sat(finally)...
after the system complications the last time I went lo...
after that time...
I seriously would not consider any kind of things to be affiliated with gov related departments esp during pre-holiday, holiday and posy holiday season...
have learned my lesson too well(waited 6 hours for nothing b4 christmas...)

wish me luck for my exam and my new job.
looking forward to update the blog soon...
dun miss me (ss-ing >.<)

An Ending

2010-01-03T14:37:00.000+08:00

As time pass by,
people not only evolve to become more modern...
they become more complicated as well...

so starts the words with underlying meaning...
the masks that hides what we don't desire others to glimpse..
the actions we do to keep things we don't want others to know under wraps...

all simply complicates things..
creating differences
that divides us apart further from each other
although once those meant nothing to us...

but now it pulls us apart...
i doubt if we'll be able to put aside those differences...
i guess this is the end.

My aunt's wedding

2010-01-03T13:53:00.000+08:00

the girls with the bride

this was the wedding i attended some time ago...
my aunt's...
anyway,
its kinda late to put this now since the honeymoon was long over ad..

um...
i guess that would be all about this matter.
till next time...

Its Christmas TODAY!

2009-12-25T23:29:00.000+08:00

Yes..
It is Christmas today...
Merry Christmas to all who celebrating...

anyway...
there a wedding tmrw...
its my aunt's and i'm the bridesmaid due to my zodiac sign...

that also means...
i'll have to be there early than the normal guest...
>.<
my beauty sleep....

anyhow,
hope that tmrw will be a fun filled day.
so much for now...
will update soon.

The Air of Freedom is the Sweetest...

2009-12-14T14:57:00.000+08:00

hah...
its finally over...
no more crazy studying...
no more late night cramming...

at least now my brain cells can go into hibernation mode...
so dun fault me if i by any chance answer your question wrongly
or just maybe what i said didn't make sense...

anyway..
gonna start my driving lessons soon...
in fact i'm taking the khusus this thursday and the undang this saturday...

hope that i'll pass it with ease.

so that's all for now.
hope that i have time to upload more stuff before i start work on the 21st.

updated

2009-12-10T14:44:00.000+08:00

have just finished chemistry a few days ago...

now am going for chinese intensive tuition every day until the 13th...

anyway...
found a job today.
so looks like my post spm plans are more than confirmed.

but enough about me...

have you ever wondered whether its "unobservant" or "inobservant"?
well...
a few ppl have been arguing about this the past few days...

and a third party finally said:
"let's just use "not observant"...to be accurate..."

but although that seemed to be a preety good conclusion...
x and y are apparently unsatisfied about this...

let's hope they reach a conclusion soon...

for my ears seriously need a rest.

In the present...

2009-12-05T14:03:00.000+08:00

in a few days,
the spm ordeal would be over for quite a lot of people that i noe..

in a few more days...
only would it be over for us who took chinese as an extra subject....

still...
currently concentrating on chemistry...
hope i won't flunk this paper...

anyway...
dats all for now...

will update after spm ends...

till then...

Farewell add maths woes...

2009-11-25T19:51:00.000+08:00

cycling in the sunset

just the big blue sky...

and a nice cup of tea ^^v

not that this is that recent....but i guess i kinda like photography...
this is some that i took some time ago...

but still...just for the fun of it...

anyway...

today was the end of add maths...
that means i dun have to touch that any more...

cause (no offense to any enthusiast of this subject) , but it's...

i guess just too much moving my lazy brain for....

anyhow,

i'm just glad that its over and now i can breathe the air without much thought for that subject that i have never scored in before(maybe that's the main cause why i don't like it.)

looking back to this afternoon,
i was feeling gutted cause i dun think that i did well for this paper(esp. paper 2...)
but i guess that there's no reason whatsoever to worry bout this kinda things now....
since what's done is done and cannot be undone.

bio's the upcoming subject...
hope that i won't blow this as well...

SPM happenings

2009-11-20T13:24:00.000+08:00

my gosh...

spm is finally here...
and now just cramming and deleting...
i mean..
cram those that haven start yet
and delete those that have already been history.

the 1st day was actually quite without event unless u count the moment before the 1st paper started and everyone practically in not-so-calm state...

but the 2nd day,
we got grounded after the last paper that day...
cause the teacher-in-charge was angry at those people making a hell lot of noise at the back...
had to stay for 15 minutes...
but i guess i was ok...
just a little beat after the history paper.

now,
must put full attention into studying my add maths...
must pass!!!

so much for now...
might update after add maths paper.

秋天的旋律

2009-11-10T23:34:00.000+08:00

不知不觉。。。
一年又走了。。。
已到尽头了。。。

就像秋天一样。。。

像落叶一片一片地飘下来。。。

迎接寒冷的冬天。。。

虽然画面并不什么快乐。。。

但秋天也自有它的美。。。

spm just days away...

2009-11-05T18:16:00.000+08:00

the countdown is really on now...
with less than 15 days...
the logical thing to do would be trying to cram as much as possible...

instead of that...
i'm here..
typing this...

not that it'll make a whole lot of difference since i cant seem to study anyway...

however...
will keep trying to study and stay away from the computer...
when my siblings are going at it full blast to tempt me to abandon my studies...

hope that my determination won't waver....

that's all for now..

predicted date for next new post...

prob after spm(if i keep my hands off the computer....)

2009-10-27T16:25:00.001+08:00

just pics...

dreams

2009-10-27T16:04:00.001+08:00

time and time again...

2009-10-21T11:16:00.000+08:00

the days left before the notorious spm is getting lesser and lesser everyday...
although the heat isn't really on yet,
i can't help but think...

time really flies.

just not so long ago,
i was lazing around since the pmr have not ended..

but now,
it has..
and i'm still in the same state...

its just like my pmr time...

despite knowing that i should probably spend more time doing something more productive,

i can't seem to get myself to study much...

maybe i can blame that on short attention span(despite that its not really that true..hehe..)

anyway....

i'll try to study...
maybe i'll suceed in using my time wisely as many very wise people have advised mankind since they evolved to be more than just prehistoric creatures...

this is all for now...

signing off...

2009-10-14T14:03:00.000+08:00

虽然我不懂你会做什么选择，
但。。。
希望你会了解。。。

"unofficially" off

2009-10-11T12:39:00.000+08:00

Currently on unofficial holiday from school...
in other words...i think u noe what i mean.
anyway..
everything seems to become much of a bore after you have too much of it...

hopefully,i'll finally put my time at home to good use and study a little...
(which i guiltily did not do at all... )

the stress of spm is not exactly here yet..
but
i predict to feel its impact soon..

and with more than luck,
i hope that i'll survive it.
one way or another.

乱写一章

2009-09-19T20:58:00.000+08:00

假期终于到了。。。
虽然只是一个星期。。。
但却还是很高心。。。

在莫地方看到了这句。。。

“ 我在最靠近的地方，找最遥远的你。
但这地方好陌生，水的倒影，只有我自己。”

就这么多了。。。
该期再写了。

假期快乐 ^^

The Present Dat's NoW...

2009-09-10T20:38:00.000+08:00

Current times are not easy times...
we might have have finished our trials..
but the JPS paper hit us in the face straight after that...

that means that the late night studies continue and all the stress too...

cause it wouldn't be one without it...haha...

however,
i am thankful that there x exam this Friday...
although its no holiday...
but the people that'll show up tomorrow from my class...
i can count on a single hand...

no that we're that much of kaki ponteng's(although we sometimes are..^^)
but the exam are really no easy stuff....

but i'll probably look back a few years from now thinking that all this is just a piece of cake...
since i NOW do think that PMR is simply kacang putih...that rite...
the picture below is literally kacang putih...

looking back...
i dun really remember wat the hoo ha was about the thing...
though we did be lazy and study only one day beforw the exam(no that any of this has really changed...hehe...)
but we actually made quite a big deal out of it...

well i guess that this is what it feels like to be looking back on the past...

that's all for now..

maybe i'll find time to write again sometime soon...

after all those exams...

but for now...

smilez .

BiO TuiTion fRog DisEctiOn

2009-08-26T13:44:00.000+08:00

yes...
its true.
u x read wrongly...

we dissected a frog during bio(maybe more than 1...)

but god,
the thing would still move after we pin it to the board...

anyway...

the process started out when a student shock the frog with thinner in its container...
well, thats to make it brain dead and numb all its pain neurons..

we continues to cut it open by slicing off its skin...slowly..
so we don't cut any major ateries and cause the frog to die of extensive bleeding la...

then after observing the extensive blood vessals below the skin of the frog,
the surgeon(another student) did the same for the frog's skin and cut it all off...

bt now, we could see the internal organs of the frog..
despite the fact that it was dead by the time we did that,
its heart was still beating...
even out of its chest when all of us took turns holding it...
creepy right...

but there's actually a scientific explanation for this...
its because of the myogenic nature of the heart that causes the heart to continue to beat
according to the teacher, it would continue on so until the ATP in the heart is all used up...

wat is ATP?
well,
u'll just have to accept it as te cellular energy of (duh) a cell...

but the most gruesome part has yet to come...

cause the bloodiest part is when the guys...

cut the frog into pieces...

you would recognise it but as a frog that lost 2 limbs and all its internal organs plus most of its skin and flesh...

i guess that pretty much fits the description of it...

However...

the most gross performance was by a fellow classmate...
he ate the largest frog heart there raw with lime...
he even chewed before he swallowed...

anyway..
that was the climax of the class...
we clean up and disposed of the bodies after that...

sounds like a horrible crime doesn't it...

anyway...there are no pictures here...
cause i wouldn't wan anyone to lose their appetite and blame it on me...
but if u wanna c it,
let me know...
just don't regret it...

i don't think i'm game for cutting up another frog...

that's all for now..

signing off...

TRials Soon...TOO soon...

2009-08-08T00:04:00.000+08:00

As everyone knows..
the spm trials are coming up next week...
but the worst thing bout is...

I haven't started any productive revisions...

what i read doesn't stick at all...
this is really bad...

although i tend to feel guilty,
i too lazy to change reality...

signing off...

trying to study...

As the PDM of 08/09

2009-08-01T23:11:00.000+08:00

Haven't updated the blog in a while...
cause have been really busy with Flag Day...
but now,
i totally relieved...since that the event is finally over and someone else is gonna be the PDM...
back looking back,
i've learnt a lot this past term acting as the PDM...
be it pleasant or otherwise,
I'm glad that i did it and though there are a few things i hope to improve on,
I regret little and am truly grateful for the experience.

Certainly, i thank the people that have given me the change in the first place...
you all have gave me a learning experience that i most certainly won't forget..

The past year may have post many challenges but I'm glad I made it through one way or another.

so, to the one taking over,
I wish u the best of luck.

current events..

2009-07-15T23:04:00.000+08:00

Just got some really shocking news today in schl..
the trials are gonna be on the 17th of August...
which is about one month from now...
which also means that play time is over and its really time to get serious...

Haiz..all of it seem to fly by without me noticing it much...

anyway..i'll try and do my best to strut my stuff and maybe ace at least 6 subjects..

i hope so...

now continue wallowing in misery....

finishing add maths...i hope la...

2009-07-02T22:24:00.000+08:00

still struggling with the last part of my project...

that would mean that i should be doing that..
instead of doing this...but whatever la...

currently wondering what will happen if I pass my project in late...

think that the teacher will just give me a FAIL for my project lo...
sien la..
do so long ad..but still haven finish...

gotta go and put my head and heart to finishing before the sun rises tomorrow la...

signing off...

sushi.

June Summary...

2009-07-01T23:12:00.000+08:00

Trying to make head and tail of my add maths project at the moment...
but not with much success...
that would probably be...
because i'm not paying any attention at all...
haiz...
the thing some more due on Fri..
lets hope that i'll finish it in time la... ^^
anyway...
here are a few pics that simply spell SS of the form 5 ppl...hehe..
well..that's us la...posing 4 the cam...hehe..

i guess that's all for now la...

need to get back to my add maths project la...

Kuan Yee's Fault...

2009-05-29T10:40:00.000+08:00

1. Besides your lips , where is the favourite spot to get kissed ?
the cheek lo..

2. How did you feel when you woke up this MORNING ?
Life is absolutely wonderful...cause its the holidays...yay...

3. Who was the last person / people you took a photo WITH ?
That would be...

Would you consider yourself SPOILED ?
No way.

5. Will you ever donate BLOOD ?
Maybe...

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite SEX ?
Ya..

7. Do you want someone to be DEAD ?
Maybe 1 or 2..no la just joking...

8. What does your last text message SAY?
Dun remember too many la...

9. What are you thinking about right NOW ?
How to finish planning Flag Day with all perfection...

1o. Do you want someone to be with you right NOW ?
Not really..maybe next time...

11. What was the time you went to bed last night ?
12 am midnight...before i turn into a pumpkin...hehe

12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now ?
Don't remember la...so long ago...

13. Is someone on your mind right NOW ?
Nope

14. Who was the last person who text YOU ?
Reb

15. What food you love the most?
I'll have to say...hot and spicy..they always taste the best...

TEN Lucky Person to do this quiz .
1 Soon Huat
2 Kuan Yee
3 Sylvia
4 Yi Lian
5 Galus2
6 Adeline
7 Pui Mun
8 Amanda
9Sing Yee
10 HaMster

Who is no.2 having a relationship WITH ?
NOt anyone i noe..

17. Is no.3 a male or a FEMALE ?
Female la....

18. If no.7 and no.10 get TOGETHER ,would it be a good ?
They're made 4 each other...

19. What is no.1 studying?
That is not a word u can find in his dictionary...

20. When was the last time you chatted with THEM ?
Still chatting away...

21. IS no.4 SINGLE ?
Maybe...

22. Say something about no.2.
She' cute, she's lovable, she's Kuan Yee...

23. What do you think about no.3 & no.6 being TOGETHER ?
I really can't say...

24. Describe no.9
She's tall..really tall...

25 . What will you do if no.5 and no.7 FIGHT ?
I'll help no.7 kick no.5's ass...

26 . Do you like no.8 ?
Why won't I?

27. What is no.1 favourite colour?
Pink?

28. No.9 changed his attitude 360 degree.
Wow...That's too mean...

29. What is no.6 currently doing now?
Breathing la...what else...

30. Do no.10 wear spectacles?
How did you know?

31. No.4 and no.5 decided to dump you so that they can go for a movie.
Then I'll go for a movie with no.7 and no.10

32. No.8 ask you to teach some maths question.
Sry...got a little prob with numbers la...

the sweet air of freedom...

2009-05-28T14:37:00.000+08:00

finally this day has come...
had been waiting for this since the start of this exam...
but matters not anymore ..
cause now is start of the holidays...
where freedom looms ahead...
actually it's already here^^
ah...the sweet smell of freedom...
that would also mean...
no more trying to cram 500 pages of the subject into my head
then deleting it all the next day...
some more have to stay up till 2,3 o'clock only can sleep...
and best of all....
i'm temporarily free from doing add maths....
yay...
totally worth celebrating...

updating...

2009-05-09T23:07:00.000+08:00

exam are coming really soon...
they're here in a blink of an eye...
that i could hardly catch my breath...
looks like this would be a disaster compared to the exam in march...
adding to my problems...
the cold bug is jumping all over...
and i was very unlucky to have caught it at this inconvenient time...
but looking on the bright side...
at least my comp recovered from its virus attack
and everything is up and running...
it was terrible without it...
absolutely love the computer...
well that's all...
i better start doing what i have to do...
study...
pray that i'll come out alive...
so long.

a little song--jason mraz-i'm yours

2009-04-02T21:08:00.000+08:00

Well, you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but your so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks, now I'm tryin to get back
before the cool done run out I'll be givin it my best test
and nothin's gonna stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

But I won't hesitate no more,
no more, it cannot wait
I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free
look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
listen to the music at the moment people dance and sing with me
Were just 1 big family
And it's our godforsaken right to be loved loved loved loved loved

So, i won't hesitate no more,
no more, it cannot wait i'm sure
there's no need to complicate our time is short
this is our fate
I'm yours

Scooch on over closer, dear
And I will nibble your ear

I've been spendin' way too long checkin' my tongue in the mirror
and bendin' over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
and so I drew a new face and I laughed
I guess what I'd be sayin' is there ain't no better reason
to rid yourself of vanities and just go with the seasons
it's what we aim to do
our name is our virtue

But I won't hesitate no more,
no more it cannot wait
I'm yours

well open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free
look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
ah, la one big family
it's your god forsaken right to be loved, loved, loved, loved

open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free
look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
ah, la happy family
it's our god forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved

it's our god forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved
listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
ah, la peaceful melodies
it's you god forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved

yesterday, today, tommorrow

2009-04-01T22:57:00.000+08:00

life's short.
that's a fact.
so,
we have to appreciate each moment...
every hour, every minute and every second of it...
and enjoy it to the fullest.
leave no dreams unreached.
leave no adventures undone.
n...
live with total enjoyment of the present moment.
u might regret somethings...
but life is filled with this kinda things...
so,
all we can do is just learn to live with it.
Life is so much more than just looking over your shoulder and regretting the past...
It's also enjoying the present and anticipating the future.

for now (in my really optimistic mode),
i really am looking forward to tomorrow.

Thought 4 The Day

2009-03-22T22:40:00.000+08:00

the holidays have come and past all in a blink of on eye...
thinking bout it..
it wasn't much of a holiday...
cause too many camps ad la...
2 camps in 1 week...
that's really a lot...
but i have done crazier thing b4...
like...
i went 4 vacation with my family for 3 days then...
after that...
the next day it was camp immediately...
thank god i din have to wear the same type of clothes(one was vacation the other sports wear)
otherwise how would i cope?
anyway i wonder why i did that too...
looking back to that incident quite some time ago....
however...
although i think that's a little crazy...
but i don't really regret that..
the only bad thing bout that crazy adventure of mine was...
i was truly exhausted...
i slept once my head hit the pillow that evening...
come to think of it,
i dun think i bothered to wake up 4 dinner at all...
anyways...
despite it was really quite different from the stuff i would do normally...
its good to do crazy and different stuff once in a while.
BUT only once in while. ^^

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putting all that aside,
school starts tomorrow...
which means waking up at 7(it actually better than camp cause u'll have to wake up at 6 if you're a camper...5.30 if you're a committee...)
i guess we can say that...
now that school has started we actually get to sleep later...
well i guess that's the irony of things....
looking 4ward to not failing add maths (keeping my fingers cross) tmrw...
then i guess everything thing else will go the way it wants to,
whether i want it that way or not.

that's all 4 today.

will write soon (maybe...maybe not...)

Mix & Mingle

2009-03-18T15:31:00.000+08:00

wondering what's that?
well that's the long awaited st john camp that just ended on monday...
but anyway it was fun and certainly different...
especially when u look at it from a committee's point of view...
on the 1st day...
we could hardly wait 4 things to end cause the thing was kinda chaotic and we're all quite tired...
but...
on the last day..
we wondered why things went by so fast...
however,
for better or for worst...
the thing had ended rather well(i personally think so)
if u wan some pictures then have to go to the sjam smk usj 13 blog la...
cause i too lazy to load ad...
hehe...
thats all for today la...
btw,
tmrw me going camp again...
but this time...
as a participant ^^

"Fun" KTM Trip~~~~~

2009-02-15T22:16:00.000+08:00

today went to serdang on ktm...

our syok sendiri pic...at the station....
where we bought tickets for kl central...
then at kl only did we buy the ticket to serdang...
which is kinda silly since we could buy straight away to serdang...
so on the way back get smart ad la...
so buy straight to subang wan...
then no need queue 2 times lo...
however..
it was kinda terrible trip back as...
the train was packed like sardines like that...
had to squeeze a little..
and maintain our balance a lot..
since the handrail were unavailable...
at first thought that the people will get down after a few stops...
and so we waited...
in the end...
guess where most of them got off？
that's right...
the same station we got off...
all of us left the train asap...
din wanna get caught in the crowd again de...
not taking KTM on sunday again la...
too crowed especially at the mid valley and kl central there...
so many ppl...
which make me think of a stupid idiot that kept pushing behind at kl central...
hope he falls on his face any time soon....

till next time la...

really??

2009-02-13T21:39:00.000+08:00

today meeting in schl until 3pm...
although there wasn't much that we talked about...
then go for training until 4pm...
I so very kesian la...
have to become sing yee and pui mun's dummy for the bed making part...
don't get wrong ideas..its for the competitions..
but that is an experience that i dun wanna go through again..
coz both of them very ganas la....
thank god i set alarm for 4 already...
if not then have to continue play the dummy...
ran out as fast as i could...
when i got home then i thought i got tuition at kasturi at 4.50pm..
after went home then fast fast makan and bathe already lo...
and get ready for tuition lo...
but that was last year...
this year is actually 6.10 la...
but din remember that until mum ask why i so fast wanna go tuition...
then i struck me...
the timetable change already la...
haiz...
too much training la...
damn tired when go tuition lo...
at least now can rest ad...
falling asleep as i write this...

night night people...

waking up to reality...i guess...

2009-02-11T22:00:00.000+08:00

i'm back....
currently bored...
that seems to be the thing with everyone these days...
despite the fact that there is actually quite a lot to do...
and bad news..
the school exams will be clashing with the competition...
that in other words...
you'll see my exam paper all decorated in RED!!
but dun really have much choice la...
but i'll try my best to pass all la...
despite the fact that last minute studying stopped working since form 4....
well
that means that I'm totally doomed for this exam...
even if I were to pass especially add maths and physics...
that would require a gigantic
humongous
impossible
amount of luck...
which have always eluded me since as long as i can remember...
still..
won't stop hoping that i'll pass
somehow...
maybe...
anyway...
really in need of luck....
staying optimistic for the moment...
until pessimism takes over..
or am i supposed to say..
waking up to reality...
ok..
i know that everyone reading until here can feel the lameness oozing out of the blog...
never mind la...
if you know me
then
you'll know I can be quite lame sometimes
if not
for most of the times...hehe...
till next time...
which i dunno when....

Chinese New Year

2009-01-31T22:04:00.000+08:00

the new year has arrived and everybody has donned the colour red to welcome it...
i guess you can say that this is a sea of REd...
or at least most of it is red...hehe...
but too bad we forget to tell everyone to pakat and wear red...
that's why got a few sesat people la...
but never mind la...red enough already la...
gong xi fa cai everyone ^^

..............................................................................................................

2009-01-24T23:52:00.000+08:00

me feeling really emo again...
so if you're not up to it, stop reading here.
you have warned about my emo-ness...
i actually have nothing to emo about coming to think of it...
but that does not change the circumstances at all...
feeling blue and really cold despite the heat of new year...
everyone is in high moods whereas i'm just sitting in front of my comp, typing this and emo-ing..
haiz...
guess it's all doom and gloom for me for now....
hope the sun will come out soon and the eye of heaven will shine again.

to all my friends

2009-01-17T23:37:00.000+08:00

this year is the year where we all become form 5's...
thinking bout it...
soon there'll be spm(tons of studying) then we'll all go our separate ways(too many teary goodbyes)...
it is kinda sad...
you must think...isn't it too early to think bout this kinda stuff?
well..you might be right...
but now i tend to appreciate my friends so much more(not that i don't always)...
really feeling how much i'll probably miss them when we part...
and those who i will still see, i'm grateful that they'll still be with me...
anyway,this way or that way,
just remember that i'm always ya friend and hope that you'll continue to be mine...
and let's all enjoy our senior year! ^^
and make it unforgettably our best memories.

now time to zzZZ...
night everyone =)

Angels & Demons

2009-01-12T22:14:00.000+08:00

this image is a symbol of the existence of opposite in our world....
with black there must be white,
with evil there must be good(no matter how little),
with angels there must also be demons...

Is it just me or is this happening to you too?
My angels(and good things in life) seem to be doing a good job of eluding me,
However, my demons(and all things not so good in life) seem to bugging endlessly,
Bringing along a lot of things that I dun wanna think or take action regarding it...
Things that I thought that I have seem the last of it...
Or so I hope...

Now the invasion starts again,
Throwing my life into unruly chaos...
Totally out of balanced...
I'm now lost, looking for direction...

Hoping to find it soon...
And gaining back my sense of direction...maybe....

Form 5...The Perfect Life...So NOT>

2009-01-08T18:46:00.000+08:00

ah...so it's now Form 5 life going on..
have been a rather hectic week, with teachers going full speed ahead not barely 5 seconds after they intro themselves...
wow...
the homework that comes with Form 5 is actually very similar to Standard 6's workload...
they just keep coming and coming..
wondering if I'll survive the month before i go brain dead...
just imagine the headlines:
" Girl become Brain DEAD because Homework Overload"
it'll probably be the lamest topic everyone has ever read..
written by the lamest journalist...me
hehe..
signing off...
till next time..
do wish me luck with my mountain of homework that's expected to grow at least 10 times more...

Ding Dong

2008-12-31T22:21:00.000+08:00

In a blink of an eye we're already at the end of 2008...with just a few hours left in this year only.
So,before the clock strikes 12, let us all make aspirations for the coming year and hope that they will all come through..reflect and maybe relive the happy memories in this last few moments...
But let us all welcome the year 2009 with a happy heart and dreams anew.
May all your dreams and wishes come through .
From: yours truly ^^

Youth Dhamma Camp--A Seed Of Hope

2008-12-26T23:48:00.000+08:00

Recently went to a camp called Youth Dhamma Camp--A Seed Of Hope. The camp was four days three nights in the Dusun Eco Resort. However, do not be fooled by the name resort. The place although has a really nice view with the canopy walk and all, the bath water was freezing. With that kind of water, you won't need to go to the colder countries to experience taking a bath there 'cause the water cold enough to freeze your heart in your chest. Not that I'm complaining since its all part of the experience...
To all going for camps in the future, especially when that camp has jungle walking, remember not to put on your mosquito repellent...why? you ask...well..it seemed to have a reverse effect when i put it on. Just after applying the repellent, 2 mosquito appear es on my arm...was that sheer bad luck or what..Other than that, during the 1 hour jungle walk, the roaches that we saw were barely bigger than the biggest ant around that area...Guess that food is not easy to find in the jungle..all in all, it was certainly an experience that you don't wanna miss, however dirty you may get =D
To those who are normally lazy to move, well...camp will make you move. A lot. I'm guessing that I ran around in camp more than in my one whole month of holiday. It might be tiring, but worth it at the end of the game. Ran from one end to the other back there. And if you were there, you would probably see me barely tagging along behind...Wondering why? well...those in my team were really athlete material..OR...I simply was the one who took little thought for exercise...never mind that topic...hehe...not that important now...
In this camp it wasn't just about playing around...we also have talks that very imformative too. There was a question that was asked anonymously that went like :
" In life we make many choices. But how do we know that the one we made isn't the wrong one? How do we make the right ones? Someone once said that you would have to be contented with not knowing sometimes. So what should we do?"
The speaker who have had many years of experience then answered(not quoting word for word, so don't kill me if I get it a little mixed up..hehe):
"Its true in life we make a lot of choices, sometimes we make a right one, sometimes we make a wrong one, but we all make that choice that seemed to be the best choice at that time and place. So, if we make a right choice then we're lucky. If its the other way, then you'll have to live on still. You might not be happy about it but the choice you have made and cannot be undone, thats why we try our best to live with whatever choices we make. Last but not least, we're all human, so, if you make a wrong choice that you still blame yourself for, forgive yourself. These things do happen."
Indeed the words of a master who known and seen a lot.
Well thats all the highlights from the camp. Until next time ^^v

time and time again

2008-11-10T21:49:00.000+08:00

i wonder if time is really a relative quatity
someone said that it is just something that a clock measures...
the concept of time that we hold so dear is it all just a mere illusion of our minds and over imaginative?
really...
all this while..
counting the seconds, minutes and hours...
all these are actually just something we count by using a clock?watch?
apparently,
we really are deluded..
or are we?
well i guess that depends solely on the person who is counting the seconds..
is it a really important part of life or just a quantity that a clock measures?

....

2008-11-04T14:27:00.001+08:00

this day pretty much started out like any other,
but who knew this day would bring so much sadness and disappointment...
but even if i knew,
would it really make any difference at all?
watching the rain fall,
i feel my spirits dampen with every drop...
as the wind blew,
the chill in me just got stronger..
knowing doesn't make a difference,
it just makes it harder...
harder to accept the facts and reality that are so cruelly stumbled upon..
harder to make sure i get through this day as any other..
i wish that i really didn't know a thing that i didn't have to
ignorance is really bliss..
knowing too much simply hurts more than just plain not knowing
maybe i'll be spared the next time...
maybe...

面具

2008-10-26T21:52:00.000+08:00

你那纯真的脸
从前爱笑就笑
爱哭就哭
但
这一切都变了
你变了
你学会了隐藏表情
你学会了口是心非
你学会了戴面具
再也不透明了
反而看着你时
我只会什么都不懂
努力猜测你的心
想知道你到底在想什么
你变了
你真的变了
变得对我陌生无情
面具后的你
再也不和我见面了吗？

2008-10-05T10:02:00.000+08:00

看着眼前的美好，

只能恨不得拥有，

但因怕失去的痛，

而宁愿没拥有它。

失去的痛，

因永远不存在，

因永远得不到，

因永远太远了。。。

artistic lyrics

2008-09-24T14:45:00.000+08:00

read lately that reading the lyrics of a song is actually an art....

well that was what jay chou said la...

a think that he is kinda right as his lyrics can really be poems if not music..

so i guess he's quite a poet as well..

if u read his lyrics u'll find that its actually like a poem but better since it has music to go with it...

plus his song lyrics are really worth a read as he really has talent...

since u can't really hear what he sings anyway...

try his lyrics and understand the meaning..

truly an art one should practice ^^

singing emo

2008-09-15T14:40:00.000+08:00

i'm still playing with the comp despite exam few more days....
feel kinda guilty but then again dun really...
have u guys ever experince that emo music actually makes u feel better?
well i proved that today since someone i know was really emo taday...
she sang her heart out..well not literally...
n din seem too emo...
wonder if it'll work on others..
but then no harm trying when emo rite?
hehe^^
lesson of the day:
sing when its emo time=D

just round the corner

2008-09-12T22:09:00.000+08:00

signing in is me...sushi
exam is just round d corner but just is not in the mood to study...
if this goes on i'll prob fail my history and chemisrty...
lets hope that i'll get to it soon...

mooncake festival is just 2 days a way but i wonder why people celebrate it...
used to play with lanterns when i was small but the fun faded as i grew...
going 4 duty in summit...hope no case at all

but now all i can is hope and maybe get myself to study...
so lets all hope^^