Becareful of what you wish for

because it might just come true
but you might not like what you have wished...


so there's the dreadful feeling that heart sinks to the bottom
(of where i dunno, but so the expression goes)
 and it is what you wished for.

except that it isn't what you expected..
meaning that what you think and what happens in real life can have different consequences
its like the case of sailing a boat.

Naively thinking that the wind will blow the sails in the right direction
what happens insteads is...
the boat's there,
the wind blows,
but not in the direction you want.
it's sorta what you wished for.
but then again its not.

so, becareful.
you might just regret it when it comes true.

Pictures and Memories

Been looking through pictures lately..

to see how the past has been
what choices we had made
and what we choose to do with it

to be happy or otherwise.


at the same time,
we find so much to be thankful about by looking at those pictures.
we see people that'll always be there for us no matter what happens.
we see those that have been great company
we see those that we don't remember any much more
we see those that have changed our lives for better and for worse.

most importantly,

all those have made us who we are today.

you condemn  me when i do it
but it's fine when you do it?

talk about double standards.

It's funny how we wait for things to happen...
eg people only clean the fridge when its sunny (?)

doing your homework only when the song has finish playing for the 5th time

these are just some.

there's many more...

but we like to associate certain ''reasons" to doing things.

it's as if we were waiting for all the stars to align in their places before we can do anything at all...

however, the pattern is

we only do this when we don't really want to do that particular task...
hence, our ritual to get the stars or whatever in the proper position or condition

to delay,

to justify what we do not do.

what we choose not to do.

now, it's studying for quiz time

which is also why i'm avoiding the task of looking at slide after slide...

by justifying that i have so much more important things to do
other that study for tomorrow's quiz...

so we'll have to wait till the moon is high, the stars are bright, the temperature is cool, the environment is quiet before anything can even start...

but...reality beckons...

start studying!!!

nitez peeps 

just a thought

Been reading blogs lately.

It amazes me how brutally honest you can be when writing.

Not that other people are lying,
Rather, other people share stuff that are not that close to heart

Reading the blogs that write your thought straight from your head
where filtering is minimal,
and you finding that although you might have so much in common yet at the same time be so different.
you find that there are other people who think that way.

Suddenly you feel like the world is not filled with people that are....
fill in the blanks
i know what i want to write
but i most certainly won't write it here

So, moving on.

Classes have been as usual
Felt that pre u was much more taxing than this.
should have more to do
should have more mental stimulation in class
yet still expectations fall short


should join more clubs, societies or whatever
too much free time with too little to do.

time will pass as it is a perishable commodity
no matter how we spend it
gotta spend it more meaningfully

No, I'm not thinking of changing the world or such
but my world needs more colors.
time to start looking at the colors that are available
and start adding colors to life.

Colors, pretty or not,
is better than a boring blank canvas.

looking at the colors now =)

Rain

It was raining so bad yesterday,
I almost had to swim to my car...

Thankfully, it was one of those days that I actually showed up slightly earlier to get a decent parking place...
Thankfully, I also didn't wait till it stop raining to get to the car...

Seen the pictures on fb where the water was already above the tires...
Poor them...

Nonetheless, staying dry was never an option.
Was drenched when i got into the car..
then the windscreen was so frosted up,
visibility was merely a meter or more...


so, got home cold and wet.

Was watching X Factor yesterday...
with the awesome Simon as one of the judges..


Anyways, people like to say that we watch this kinda shows because we secretly wanna watch the people that can't sing...
but if that were true,
people would stop watching after the auditions when every tom, dick and harry give their best shot at it...

yet,
the ratings remain high after that.

because,
people are interested in the dreams of these people who make it through.
they want to see the distance they are willing to go to win.


Especially in this time when the economic is not a bed of roses..
most of them are desperate
so they have to get it or else...

but it is also at this times
that people dare to dream
to think of the better future when the present is bleak
it is hope that keeps them going.

it is also at this time that they have nothing to lose.
so, they have the courage to try and realize their dreams
because failing won't mean anything worse
but winning will changes their entire lives.

in times of desperation do dreams bloom
in times of desperation do people dare to dream
in these times, do people take that step to realize their dreams.


Sometimes, it takes these times to remind us that it's ok to dream

let me know how spring is like on Jupiter and Mars

Still in uni despite the fact that there's no class after this..
suppose to be researching assignment...did a bit d..but got sleepy. z.z


so now,here i am writing.

today is psg day.
so we went to wisma n played with colorful stickers that we stuck on each other's back after we finish writing them...
of course, we have to write something nice, so we wrote but only got to read what was other people's backs..

in other words, i dunno what they wrote n stuck to the back of my shirt...
and that's why we're walking around with bits of colorful paper stuck to our back..
other people would probably think that we're crazy psycho students that go around with post-it's on their backs writing god knows what...haha...
cause we're all obviously wearing our psych t-shirt...
therefore, image tarnished??
adding more reason for people to believe that psychology students are a bit not right in the head
(which they also believe is why we studied this in the first place..vicious cycle??)

oh ya..when i get back n read those little pieces of paper,
i'll recognize your handwriting...
so...
u know la =p


but whatever u wrote, i had fun playing with u guys today =)

After a Sunday Afternoon

I've left this blog alone for a little too long..
But today, I feel like writing something,
so here i am. =)

Today's been a rather lazy Sunday.
Waking up late, making pancakes for lunch,
Just lazing around and enjoying the afternoon.

Doing nothing is an acquired skill.
whether we realize it or not,
we're always up to something.
You know it's true when your head can't stop thinking. Something must go on in there and there seems like no way to stop it.

So, today was one of those rare days when it was relatively blank.
To just enjoy the day for what it is and soak in the sun, enjoy the breeze...

Also, at the same time being really productive by finishing 60% of 112's journal in one go...
making this one of my not-so-last-minute assignments that I've done in quite a long time.
For I confess,
procrastination is one of my greatest flaw...there seems to be more fun racing with the clock to complete something and make sure that it is of a certain quality before the deadline. Or I suppose that it's just an excuse for not doing what I'm supposed to do XD

Hmm...Should write more often. I=  Cause it's fun =)

Some updates.

Assignments are closing on one by one. Midterms are like next week but I'm not feeling it yet...should start studying soon...but I'll probably end up doing it one day before and try to cram everything in one day..hopefully I can or hope that I'll start earlier? sometimes habits are just so hard to get out from...

Also,
it's a really nice feeling when you and old friends meet but your conversations go on as if not a day has past since your last encounter.
it's heartwarming to see that we still care as much
it's really good seeing you again =)

that's all for now. updates soon.


 

To the peeps around me,

Thanks for making me smile when I forget to. =)

down

everything is fine.
but nothings feels right.


what is wrong then?

thinking bout stuff that i shouldn't conern myself about...

worrying about the things in the future,

that may or may not happen...


still not able to stop the thought process...
sometimes,
wish that there were a stop button to stop thinking bout these kinda stuff.

i know i wished for it...
but it was never supposed to happen in real life in all the wrong ways...

left with a mind that still wonders back to that.
even now.


only comfort, it'll either stop tmrw or get even worse.

还没好好地感受 雪花绽放的气候


我们一起颤抖 会更明白 什么是温柔

还没跟你牵着手 走过荒芜的沙丘

可能从此以后 学会珍惜 天长和地久

有时候 有时候

我会相信一切有尽头

相聚离开 都有时候

没有什么会永垂不朽

可是我 有时候

宁愿选择留恋不放手

等到风景都看透

也许你会陪我 看细水长流

还没为你把红豆 熬成缠绵的伤口

然后一起分享 会更明白 相思的哀愁

还没好好地感受 醒著亲吻的温柔

可能在我左右 你才追求 孤独的自由

有时候 有时候

我会相信一切有尽头

相聚离开 都有时候

没有什么会永垂不朽

可是我 有时候

宁愿选择留恋不放手

等到风景都看透

也许你会陪我 看细水长流

有时候 有时候

我会相信一切有尽头

相聚离开 都有时候

没有什么会永垂不朽

可是我 有时候

宁愿选择留恋不放手

等到风景都看透

也许你会陪我 看细水长流

I'm not lost anymore..
Well, at least for now.



Its a short sem this time meaning that the time to warm ip to do our assignments have been halved.
Nonetheless, life goes on and assignments must be done on time.

Anyways,
Like always,
procastination is the greatest assignment and exam killer of all time..

so far, the ppl in charge have not gotten any leads to catch hold of this menacing killer,
leaving it to roam free and continue to wreck havoc in the lives of those that fall victim.

The public is advised to look out for suspicious characters that roam about.
And to try to avoid them as far as possible.

^^v

Now n Forever

I've found my 'Why'

Its time to get started for real and do what I'm supposed to do.


Anyways,
a little update on life nowadays....
there'll be a BBQ later in uni...
decided to just go n have some fun...


Assignments are at a all time high (but not as high as Ausmat)
finishing them one by one.
think that they will be all on time. ^^

Conclusion: I think I'm heading where I'm supposed to go. Things will turn out Ok after all. =)

Broken

I'm feeling really lost at the moment,
I wanna find my way.
The path I'm supposed to take.


But we all know with certainty that there are no absolutes here.

There's just maybe, probably, and no idea.

Absolution is a summer dream

that would continue to haunt us


We know naught about the things
How it will start

Or how will it end

Not till the moment when it matters.

Will it be too late then?


Do people pay more attention to broken dolls?

Dolls that are broken have this certain quality
in them that compels you to look deeper into
Those sad glass eyes that reflects your own.
They tell a story,


One of sadness, gore and regret.
They tell a story,
One that we would not easily forget.

And they'll keep telling stories,
Until we listen no more...

New Start

Just started class...
AND
waking up really early in the morning
AND
sitting in the jam on the way to class...


Anyways,
new beginnings for all...
meeting new people
learning new things


We do this every year..
Yet, when yesteryear passes us by like a flash
We never ever get used to that...

Saying goodbye to things that you no longer can indulge and keep anymore this year...
Putting certain thing lower down the list as other more pressing matters have push them down...

With the new year comes change,
new choices and new dilemmas.
We'd survive one way or another
and then when the year ends,
we marvel that we got through all that...
only to start all over the next year..


The continuous cycle that would go on,
Until the day we cease to care whether or not things happen..
Otherwise it would be see you again nest year!