There's always times when you wonder too much.

Will life be better if technology hadn't changed it?
Will we find more peace with ourselves and others if we lived like those not so long ago?
Will be happier if we actually worked for any other reason but to survive?
Since the option of making it in the wild is unlikely...

We are all stuck in civilization.
Surrounded by technology, gagdets and gizmos.
Rushing through life as we try to squeeze more work from each moment.
Going through most if this mindlessly because everyone is doing the same thing.
At the end of the day, there's still this emptiness.
But we don't know what exactly will fill it.

You try charities and volunteering and wonder
what has our world come to?
Before modernization and all
everyone seemed to stand a chance at a better quality of life.
Less stress.
Higher Mortality rates but perhaps more quality moments
Rather than just mere quantities.

Even worse is the way some people treat animals.
Before cities and mega cities,
animals had a habitat.
They did not have to rely on humans for food.
But now,
they can't really hunt or scavenge much
with the concrete jungle all around them
and everyone who deems them as pest out to get them.

It's really heart wrenching to watch as animals suffer.
Because they've asked for none of the development
none of the lost of habitat
yet, they suffer.
Hungry, without shelter when it rains.
Left in the middle of highways by people who want to get rid of them.
It is a sad state what we have become.
To inflict suffering not only on ourselves but those around us.
who were just guilty of having the wrong neighbors.

2013

So, here's the first post for the new year,
although its no longer that new,
it'll be as new as one can get. lol.
Resolution?
Haven't thought of them this year.
Maybe its because I haven't gotten a calender.

Haha.
It's true.
I do need things like clocks, watches and calenders
to give me a sense of time.
Otherwise,
it can all go by and
I won't feel a thing.

Anyways,
this year starts off with the increase in workload.
and of course, various commitments.
It is also the last year I'll have in university
as I am intent on finishing everything this year.

That, of course, does come at a price.
Whether or not it is worth it?
I surely hope so.
And hopefully this time I won't take on more than I can handle.

Again,
this goes back to the argument
on whether we would know our limits
and the only true way of knowing is
doing something beyond it.
else you'll never know where the line lies.

So, this year.
The start of new things and new decisions,
a brand new slate to start on.

To learn to appreciate the things we have even more,
To be grateful for what we have
and to strive to be better.
Hmm, looks like I do have some resolutions after all.

So yeah, Happy New Year!
May 2013 be awesome for you and me =)

Thoughts.

The semester has gone by so fast
that it had seem like just yesterday it was the beginning of the semester
when we were all so ready to take on
whatever that would come our way.

Now, it's the finals.
Never the right time to write,
yet it seems like I always do at these times.
And the semester is ending and Christmas is just around the corner.
Which means that the year is ending as well.
Always the season for nostalgia.

Time to look back and reflect how the year has been
To see
What has happened
and of course,
what had mattered.

This year has been crazier than the past,
that's for sure.
With increasingly demanding schedule and commitments,
time seems to go by so fast at times.

Yet, in all that rush and commotion,
we somehow find time to do things that matter to us,
to spend time with those whom we care about
to let common sense off and do some nutty things at times
and to totally enjoy those moments.

This year,
I felt like that more has been done as compared to yesteryear.
More things that happened,
have actually mattered to me.
I've learned to care more and feel more
and just allow myself to experience things as they are
rather than over thinking it too much.

To stay at that moment as it happens,
rather than observe
just like a unrelated bystander.

I'll admit that the year has its up's and down's like every other year.
But this year just seems more special that others.
Maybe it's because that I've learnt to accept things.
How they happen and how one may not control it.
Rather one can only choose how to handle it.

Although yes,
there are choices that are entirely up to one's self.
Making choices and not regretting them is sometimes hard
But during those moments,
we forget that we are human too
and therefore, not perfect.

Rationally we know that,
but more often that not,
we still beat ourselves up over such choices.
Yet, looking back, that could have been the best option
under those circumstances.
And it still might be
even if the outcome is not the best one yet.

Regardless,
when a choice is made,
it is done.

Now, to get back to studying.
Textbooks, slides,
notes...
The bane of most students' existence ( Just maybe this is a little exaggerated, =p)

So, good luck peeps to your finals.
It's gonna be tough
but I think we'll all make it out
in one piece. =)

Why do fairy tales start with the usual...

"Once upon a time, in a kingdom far far away..."

Because fairy tales can never happen in real life.
They exist in a place so far that we don't even have a name for it.

And only occurs once.
After that, the magic is shattered and
all is gone.
Like nothing ever happened.
Back to the mundane and predictable.

Because fairy tales were never meant to be more than just tales.

Hot Air Balloons- the new way to travel?

Been having this fascination with this mode of transport for a bit

How awesome would it be to rise up to the sky slowly in a one of them,
looking down as the ground becomes further
and the people, places and all become smaller.

To fly up so high
one is left with quiet and
the company of one thoughts
just to enjoy the moment as it is.

no phones or internet connection.
maybe just a camera to capture such splendid moments

to feel that peace that comes
when there are no distractions,
nobody else to give orders or opinions.

just you, the hot air balloon and your thoughts,
high up in the air.

Time

We have time - Octavian Palar

We have time for everything
Sleep, run back and forth,
regret the mistakes we made and err again,
judge others and absolve ourselves,
we have time to read and write,
edit what we wrote, regret what we wrote,
we have time to make projects and never follow through
we have time to dwell in illusions and stir through their ashes much later.

We have time for ambitions and diseases,
to blame destiny and details,
we have time to look at the clouds, at the ads, or some accident,
we have time
to chase away our questions, postpone our answers, we have time
to crush a dream and reinvent it, we have time to make friends,
to lose them, we have time to take lessons and forgetten
soon after, we have time to receive gifts and not understand them.

We have time for everything.
No time, though, for a little tenderness.
When we’re about to do that, too, we die.


I learnt some things in life that I want to share with you
I learnt you can’t make somebody love you. All you can
do is be a beloved person. The rest…depends on the
others.

I learnt that however much I care,
Others might not care at all.
I learnt that it takes years to gain trust and that
you can lose it in just a few seconds.
I learnt that it doesn’t matter what you have in life, but whom.
I learnt you can get by and your charm is useful for about 15 minutes.
After that, however, you’d better know something.
I learnt that you should not compare yourself to what others can do better–
But to what you can do better.

I learnt that it doesn’t matter what happens to people
But what I can do to help them.
I learnt that no matter how you cut it,
Every thing has two faces.
I learnt you need to part with your loved ones with
warm words,
It might be the last time you see them.

I learnt that you can carry on for a long time
After you said you can’t.
I learnt that the heroes are those who do what’s needed, when needed,
No matter what the consequences.
I learnt that there are people who love you,
But don’t know how to show it.
I learnt that when I am angry, I have the right to be angry.

I learnt that true friendship continues to exist even at a distance.
 And this is also true for real love.
I learnt that, if somebody doesn’t love you like you want them to,
It doesn’t mean they don’t love you with all their heart.

I learnt that no matter how good a friend is,
He will nevertheless hurt you every once in a while,
And you’ve got to forgive him for this.
I learnt that it’s not always enough to be forgiven by others.

Sometimes you’ve got to learn to forgive yourself
I learn that no matter how much you suffer,
The world won’t stop in its tracks because of your pain.
I learnt that your past and circumstances might influence your personality
But you are responsible for what you become.

I learnt that if two people argue, it doesn’t mean they don’t love each other
And the fact that they don’t argue doesn’t prove they love each other.
I learnt that sometimes you’ve got to put a person first,
And not his deeds.

I learnt that two people can look at the same thing
And see two completely different things
I learnt that no matter what the consequences
Those who are honest with themselves go farther in life.

 I learnt that your life can change in the course of a few hours
By people who don’t even know you.
I learnt that when you think you’ve got nothing to give
When a friend calls for you, you’ll find the strength to help him.

I learnt that writing,
Just like talking,
Can soothe the pain in your soul.
I learnt the the people you love the most
Are taken away from you much too soon.
I learnt that it’s too hard to realize
Where to draw a line between being nice, not hurting people, and standing up for your beliefs.
I learnt to love
So I can be loved.

Conventional Wisdom?

Yes, its assignment crunch time again.
And yes, the blog is usually revived at such times.
Goes against conventional wisdom that says this reduces productivity?
Probably true.
Yet, it still happens.

Waiting for last minute inspiration to kick in.
It has a bit but still not enough.
Don't know why I keep doing this,
but so far down the road it has not failed me yet.
Maybe it's the adrenaline rush?
The full focus it requires you to put in?
The thrill of all or nothing?
Maybe a bit of all of the above.

I also know that this sometimes drives my friends crazy.
But you should know that this is the best way I work.
And, with time, the effort to convert me has gone down.
So, thank you for understanding and accepting.
I promise to lower your anxiety levels as best as I could,
in the ways that I can. =)

You don't know how this works?
Well, to be honest, I don't know too.
Lol. But I feel that things will turn out alright.
Just like they always do.

So, dear darlings,
on the eve of our our assignment deadlines,
I wish you all the best.
Ans yes, I know that you can do it.
Even if you think you can't. =p
Full speed ahead !